A trip to OrthoArkansas to have the knee that was scoped on July 1 checked because of continuing pain. The knee is worn out the joint is degenerated and has arthritis. The shining cue ball looking surface is more akin to the surface of the moon in appearance. I was told point blank that my running career was over (I think I should have some say in that) but still I wasn't upset with that news...nothing like what my wife expected. I feel blessed that the Lord gave me enough speed and endurance to join the sub 4 hour marathon club and to finish 34 marathon or longer races since my first marathon in 2016. The reason I'm not upset with such otherwise devastating news? I've been saved and Baptized and follow God's plan now and I'm sure he a amazing plan for me that needs the time I dedicated to running...something I had come to worship much like an Pagan idol. He cleansed my heart and cleared my calendar. I may still try to run some but most likely no more marathons and it'll be slow and for enjoyment rather than competitive, my priorities now are to lead a life that glorifies the Lord's name by continuing to learn His word through scripture and then share that word and help people build a relationship with him.
Okay, I typed the above portion on 08/26/20 when I returned from my appointment with Dr. Newbern at OrthoArkansas. Then today's church surface was a conformation slap in the face...I believe.
Psalm 26: 1-2
1) Judge me, O Lord; for I have walked in mine integrity: I have trusted also in the Lord; therefore I shall not slide. 2) Examine me, O Lord, and prove me: try my reins and my heart.
Ole King David was sure of himself wasn't he? I'm not that brave yet and don't know that I ever will be...I can hope to be though.
The title for today's sermon was "Tried, True and Tested" and a portion of it was a quote from a book the Pastor had read that stated...
"They work at their play, worship their work and play at their worship"
Now that me eyes are opened to it, it's easy to see. We do for a fact take our hobbies to serious and work at being the best we can possibly be at whatever we do. For me it was running and as I stated a few days ago "I worshiped it much like a Pagan idol. We put them ahead of pretty much everything and it's all we want to think about or do. It's my sincere belief that I faced condemnation with my knee and he cleansed my heart and removed my false idol. We'll worship our jobs by working hard and working extra hours to get that promotion. At what cost though? We neglect our family because we don't have time for them, We neglect household duties because we don't have time. We neglect our health by running ourselves to into the ground, eating junk on the run and sleeping very little and usually poorly all for a few extra bucks and a title. I've been there and done that as well. Playing at worship? That maybe the easiest to see because even I noticed when I didn't worship. Christians what their church perfect by their standards. They want gourmet coffee in the lobby. They want the music to be perfect and no glitches with the fog machine or song board. They want their Pastor to get up and speak elegantly the word of God, but do it in less than 15 minutes. Why? Because the game comes on at noon. My tee time is at 11:45. If I don't get the steaks on the grill by 1:00 they'll not be done when the guys show up for the late game. There's many other things that can cause it and women...you're just as guilty as us men. Our priorities are out of whack and until we get them straight and get the Lord back on top of the list we'll continue to only fool ourselves. We'll never been in a position where we might ask to Lord to...Examine me!
>>>When your legs get tired….run with your heart<<<